[Talking] This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

[Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

[Talking] And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

    前几天比较情绪化的发泄了一下，得到N多朋友的support，让我感动到无语！Thanks for everything! 跳槽过来Cisco-Webex，不知这步走的对与错，很多事情在一段时间后回过头来才会明了。

起步阶段是tough的，虽然工作量只有之前DELL的1/3，但很多时候会有种有力无处使的压抑。因为企业客户都是慢热型销售周期相对较长，截至到第一个Q的13周中的第12周结束业绩仍然挂零，在我迷茫郁闷外加一点点纠结的07年最后一周，力挽狂澜的拿下一个超大单+一个小单，完成整个Q的quota，充分感受到了什么叫大悲大喜! 貌似new hire在第一个Q可以完成Quota基本是不可能的，在这里厚着脸皮小赞一下自己！^_^ 单纯就结果来讲是可喜的，但对这三个月的状态与表现只可给自己50分，找不到从前的激情，懒惰了许多也伴随一点盲目，这才是自己失望的主要原因。

本以为会把这种郁郁之情带进2008，这个单的让我在07年结束之前终于可以扬眉吐气！一个朋友E-mail我说：“兄弟，你是战士！年轻的时候告诉自己，不要怕！年老的时候对自己说，不后悔！”谢谢！终于已经找到了些感觉，期待重返从前工作狂状态的Solo，下个Q会更好! Solo is the best, always!

08年是我的本命年,希望流年顺利！或许我控制不了快乐与悲伤，但我会让自己的每一天都过得精彩！

明天下午的航班回大连，想念大连的海上飘雪…